Wednesday 10 December 2014

Years Gone By

I don't remember since when i've locked my journal into the drawer and never dig it out. 
I'm enjoying my life now. 

 I'm thankful for the hard times because they make me stronger.
 People grief when they lost so much.
 But no matter what,
 We're all getting through it in our own way. 

Part of me was buried in the past, 
and the least i could do is to move forward. 

So now 2014 is nearly the end. 
Will 2015 going to be even better? 

< Moving on> 

Monday 4 August 2014

奔跑中的自己

前些日子朋友在面书转载了段话:

“ 旅行中乍现的自我只为适应环境而生,一旦重返熟悉的生活,我仍继续扮演原来的角色,做一些框架内的事,毕竟有些事情实在太根深蒂固了,例如从前 ”

百感交集。

回来有些日子了,朋友们还是常常能够听我诉说着澳洲的点点滴滴,仿佛那里有着说不完的故事似的,感觉着我的灵魂还逗留在那里。不得不承认,我很想念澳洲,想念在澳洲所认识的所有人事物,想念在澳洲经历的一切所带给我的成长,想念澳洲的蓝天白云,想念澳洲的四季变换,想念澳洲的悠闲步调。

回国后的第一天,没有和朋友叙旧,没有开心的团圆饭,没有人开心的向我问好。
我站在最爱我的外公灵前,为自己的愚蠢请求他的原谅。因为去错了机场,没来得及赶上见他最后一面,飞机在他出殡前的那一天,落下我飞走了。

之后的我开始发高烧,被妈妈拖着去医院就医,测验结果证实是蚊症,就开始了每天到医院打点滴抽血的例常程序,足足折腾了我半个月。每天看见手上扎针后的淤青,我感觉麻木得不行。妈妈因为看见几宗蚊症死亡的案例,每天心惊胆战的祈祷我的血小板能够速速回升,把所有搜寻到的资料(该吃什么喝什么)统统用在我身上。因此,我在这半个月喝了无数瓶100plus, 八罐木瓜汁,每天往肚子里狂灌水,结果那时候的我皮肤特别好,无需什么特别护肤品就拥有水嫩嫩的肌肤,只可惜病好后我就开始大吃大喝起来,那时候的肌肤瞬时被我打击得惨败不堪。其实,我并不太在乎蚊症这回事,时常调侃着说现在蚊症那么流行,我怎么可以不赶一下,不然就落伍了。这句话给我妈妈说的时候,总是换来一副白眼。

那期间,爸爸妈妈的无微不至,亲戚朋友们的关心让我特别感动,我的血小板在那么多的大爱里头慢慢回升,而人早在这几个月下来的日子习惯了这里的一切。这无形中的习惯让我感觉那段澳洲的日子已经好遥远好遥远,我在自己出生的国度,自己熟悉的环境,熟悉的人群街道,继续扮演着原来的角色那些在他乡乍现的自我渐渐地离我而去,过着一切仿佛就如同以前一样的日子生活着。

令我百感交集的那段话。也许就是因为感同身受吧。

也许因为太习惯了,我时常有被困的感觉,那种窒息感其实真的一点也不夸张。我没办法找出什么原因让我如此焦躁不安。这期间我无论做什么事都不能泰然自若,而且还常常一直有出走的想法。五月中旬,我很突然的收拾了简单的行李,飞去 了不曾到过的东马,打算好好沉淀自己。那时候离我去香港的日子只差了几天。爸爸妈妈没有特别说什么,只叫我要小心,那时候的自己看着他们竟然有些酸酸的,觉得自己回来了还一直想要逃就觉得有些内疚。不过他们似乎能理解我这个最任性的小女儿,常常要我想清楚,说不管去哪里生活发展都无所谓,只要开心就好。

天下父母心,总是最暖心的。

爸爸妈妈,我想我总会找出最适合自己生活的方式,根深蒂固的也许不只是从前,包含着的也有从以前就一直延续下来的爱。而这个爱,就如同根深蒂固的从前。

Happiness is a direction not a destination. Thank you for existing. Be happy, be free, believe, forever young.






Friday 22 February 2013

Hello Brisbane!

I've been here for a week.
A thousand miles away from my family.
To start my new life.

And,
To move on.


I never really wondered one day i'd be here. 
It's kind of like some foolish thinking happened juz in my dream.
I cherish every moments and every people i met.




Strangers around us.
But it's always full of fun to discover and explore the brand new things.




Never put yourselves in a situation that you were sitting there as an old man thinking
" Whay IF?"
Never regret anything.
Just do it.

So do I.

Friday 23 November 2012

生日快乐 天使

回忆起鸿珠老师
眼泪总是不自觉的往下掉
不管什么时候
她总是以最美丽的姿态浮现在我脑海

我的天使老师
生日快乐

只要想起老师
我就可以再一次相信
一个人的真善美
是世俗的任何一切都无法与之媲美的

长大后的种种现实与无奈
偶尔会让我沮丧不安
但因为老师
我坚信对待这个世界
还是要抱持一颗真诚善良的心

好人不在乎会不会得到什么好报
只在乎自己为别人做了些什么

依然,
深深的感谢您
鸿珠老师
:)



Sunday 23 September 2012

Journey with Mommy

When i went back to Kampar to hand up my report and having my oral presentation, mom decided to come along with me. It was one of the great thing in life when having journey with mom! The memory between she and me =)

I like to make scrapbook to record down the journey and put some mini photos inside which can be a very fun DIY making section for killing time. It makes me happy and remind me of the memory of all those awesome experience.






Mom was exercising in Kampar park
Although Kampar is quite a boring place  which you might find nothing to do when compare to the big city, but for nearly two years living in Kampar, i love to enjoy the fresh air every early morning when i wake up.There will be a lot of students jog beside the roads and sometimes they will give you a warm smile =)

Headed to Penang 


I love Penang so much. I bet all of you already noticed that the famous mural painting news which you can saw it in newspaper or even facebook. A lot of tourists queuing up waiting to take photos of their funny pose with the paintings. So do I..Haha..It was so excited when you found the paintings in different locations but we found that some paintings were destroyed by some brainless fool. When you do not know how to respect the arts, you will not knowing how to live your life.

Happy Ever After!
It was a special art design with monkey on it =)






Ipoh is the last leg of our journey,  mainly a food hunting trip on that day. I've tasted the best curry fish head in Up and Up Restaurants and i just wanna say it was a perfect dish! Read the link and you will know more: Up & Up Restaurant

Dessert in Big Tree Foot 

Full of mixed fruit! 
Thanks for my friends who introduced the nice places and good foods for us. It was truly a wonderful and enjoyable trip!

Wednesday 12 September 2012

悠悠

如果喜欢是种负担
就把它戒掉吧
就像戒毒所的人
不管多爱吸
只要信念确定了
总有一天还是能回头是岸

很多时候
人跟人之间的伤害都是无形的
也许彼此都有自己的苦衷
那个不期望别人会明白的理由
那个觉得说出来也很无谓的荒唐
所以,就静默了

之后便等待时间来抚平这个伤口
以为有多深呢
其实也许就没什么大不了的

了解一个人不是在乎越多就越明了
两颗心的相通
有时就是靠着一种缘分

请别说你总是被默默抛在身后的那个人
你凝望的那个背影
也许也是曾经被那背影前方的那个人所遗忘的

你的伤痛你的失望
背影不是不懂
只是
很多事就是这般无奈让人无力

有时候,不是不曾回头去看
固执的心不是不为所动
只是
也有想等待奇迹的心
你也会明白的那种
始终相信会发生的奇迹

所以才会提醒自己
无论如何都要好好过自己的生活
不管过去是多么痛心过失望过
也不会期望任何人的怜悯和同情
因为总会发现其实并没有别人想象中的那么悲哀和可怜
而那些怜悯和同情在那刻又会显得多么的表象和做作

永远都不要忽视自己未来会很美好的可能性
这也许就是坚强下来的顽强信念

岁月神偷里吴君如说过
一步难,一步佳
难一步,佳一步
总要信

就这样走下去
结果是如何虽然不清楚
但要的佳步总有一天会被踩上的
总要信。

Sunday 19 August 2012

99's SHOW

Here's to update the day of the 99's school anniversary since it had been ended a weeks ago! Been so busy and tired for those days, however it was really an unforgettable experience in my life.  =)

 I luv the day 812 

I'm kinda a big fan of guitar club, of them all. They are always full of energy and young spirit, hang out with them could make me younger more five years..haha! 






There are photos of The Phantom Of The Dream fashion and hair show for the day. I was so sad that i have no chance to take my camera to shoot any photos with all those people. Only collect these photos from some photographers:

Luxurious gown
They look awesome!

Busy- ing
My cool sister 
Sis was definitely looks stunning in her mermaid style gown!
Princess and the QUEEN
My face looks so V in tis photo..haha..thanks Benz =)
Sis's hair-dresser
Especially thanks to my ROMAN Junjie
(  Looks so awkward when posing..haha! )

Hair Show

Bosnian style
Billion thanks to my dear Yengdao hair-dresser =)
Keep laughing when talking to them *Big Smile* Funny three styler!
We've been putting our effort to the show so much, especially the Zen Haute Coiffure =) All the training and rehearsal truly paid off on that memorable day.  Feel grateful to all those people who came for support us. 




Thanks for mommy's coming. Luv u MOM!

A lot of people told me that i was too skinny when standing on the stage..haha..maybe i need to gain more weights? Yet i think it was because i wore a black suit that made my body figure even more skinny! No matter what, it was a great day for me =) For Leo and Trevor, glad to meet you guys and thanks for giving me such an awesome experience. *Hug*